PROG-PROSE – an introduction

PROG-PROSE

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an introduction

i am a writer not a scientist

i am a writer not an artist

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i am a sculptor not a mortician

i am a child not an adult

i am an introduction not a real thing

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 22

FREEDOM’S SON

Originally written and posted 20.12.2011 ~ Re-posted 10.12.2019

as part of an edenbray retrospective

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Freedom’s Son

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The dumber dark sod of a creamier winter than I remember ~
Of the naked trail of me and my girl looking down on the moving town
We were restless and naive or dancing stock full of Blake’s innocence
I coulda’ cupped her breast in my flickering grasp or pressed warm lips against hers
But I heard the voice of people’s talking and the scant blue sky rolled its eye
We frolicked then with freedom as lambs, leaves and kites are prone to do
Determined and resolute in a still-born manner, I transgressed that sodden snow
Yet who then listens to logic worn or brittle-bone speeches, incantations
from empty spell wizards with cavernous heads and small grey eyes?
We have been born with a vision like wet clay on a soldiers bloodied boot
We can again shape a madonna smile, a naked infants belly and a bakers brick oven all
Where then will we put so many failed dreams if not to be within our care-worn hearts?
Where indeed is the mothers experience when relationships die and the second son
is now the only one bothered or angry to break his silence, his heart and cry?
Fourteen years is a lifetime when you’re still yearning to fly forward
yet in the dredged plumes of grey-bird smoke that trails so many lives
there is always a gnawing monster who follows every precious step
aims to catch and pin every sun-gold memory like laurel-stained butterflies
and travels like a steaming train through landscapes loving, burned or swollen
The liberty bell still ringing – draws the people from their church
where an army of small coloured children are singing and clapping happy hello’s. 

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writtenbyedenbray20.12.11

albion

 

 

 

 

 

 

#Authors note ~ sometimes I feel the need to qualify the things I say and do – like I have an unseen eye hovering over me – I am my sternest critic – I am the law of what is right or wrong and what is allowed and yet again sometimes I don’t – Freedom’s Son can be any males perspective – which sounds more exclusive than it is meant  – Again I resort to my  Jessica Phirri – my priest – my vouchsafe – does she qualify me or confirm me? She exonerates me and probably says what I want to hear. – edenbray today 

January 4, 2012 at 2.06 am – ‘As always, EB, your words make me feel; make me think. “We have been born with a vision like wet clay on a soldiers bloodied boot” really means quite a lot and perfectly expresses the mixed emotions I feel about love and life. What a wordsmith you truly are. What apprehension we must live with when living and dying all at the same time. God Bless YOU’

#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 21

THE RAILWAY MAN ( or I DREAMED UP AMERICA)

Originally posted on December 12, 2011 – Re-posted – 09.12.2019
part of an Edenbray Retrospective
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TRAIN
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THE RAILWAY MAN ( or  I DREAMED UP AMERICA )

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I, is a lover not a fighter and I work on trains

My calloused hands happy next to softened skin

Not fingering the trigger, not sighting the kill

Nor riding the bronco, nor the soldiers greed

¥

I’se got two hours in town with a lady of mine

that I met when she needed a friend and I was lonely

We drank bourbon in ‘Huskeys’ and spoke of the future

She then told me of certain things she had lost

¥

I’se wishin’ maybe one day I would settle down

Until I hears that lonely whistle blowin’

and I starts to think again of Sophie-Dawn that girl

I met last summer when the sun was hot in Bakersville

¥

Her hair was auburn and fell down her back like water

We let our passions run in the back of a grey-blue Buick

I promised her I would see her again and she laughed

and said she had more chance of meeting Jesus

¥

The smoke, the oil, the sweat and blackened coal,

The thunder of her loving wheels, this engine smooth

rocks me, soothes me till I’m walking on my knees

and Anna Sway is calling me from Aidan County

¥

Where the bluest mountains rise and the dark river

Deep and meaningful draws my soulful sense

Amid the rumble and the stink of this ashpan hopper

I’se still grip the throttle lever and the crank shifts awkward

¥

The old steam-chest snorts, the eccentric rod

engaged and oiled begins to travel like thunder

Over and beyond the blushing landscape of my hearts ease

Where lace dreams deny the passion of the day

¥

Where young Donna May is living with her mother

or Pieter Gotlander, a childhood bride at 17

who ran away from her murderous husband

He had threatened to kill her, her sister and her lover

¥

I’se a railway man, and I’se seen the sun set in many counties

Here at the dawn of a new America and in June

I saw my first brown bear fishing steelhead at the brow

of those swirling rapids in the cold Muskegon River

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I dreams of ladies fair and bare it gets me through this day

and tomorrow is taking care of itself for me I reckie’

I’se a railway tiller, an engineer of silver steel

I’se not in a hurry to get home or afraid to roam

¥

Taking my time, I’se fine, I’se in my prime

Have no hurry even to eat, or catch a bloodied dollar

There was a time when I did it all and some

and learned this engines hard but never cruel

¥

I hope to meet that black hunny Ellie, I met her once in Barry

She wore a fur coat, boots and sucked on candy lolly

and then I let her down one night, got held up

At the dust-ring watching two bloodied rovers fight

¥

I’se a natural liar I learned it from my ma’

Who taught me never take what you can buy

And never borrow what you might steal

Cos’ in the morning there’s a pedlar in us all

¥

Tonight this train is cold, laying on its back

By tomorrow evening I’se have run the derby

Run it there, delivered and collected my prize

These hot wet tears in my eyes just white stains

on some young woman’s dress!

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writtenbyedenbray12.12.2011

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Jessica Phirri says :- A character, a lonely man. A machine. A lifestyle disconnected, but sewn together by women. There is something about edenbray and the mechanics of living. Another fine tune, my s.m.

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 20

BLACK DIAMONDS

Originally written and posted 21.12.2011 – Re-posted 09.12.2019

BLACK DIAMONDS

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He dressed in blackened soot whose eyes shone upon his bare and yellowed teeth
     He worn and torn, whose royal, calloused hand, held no change or caution in its flush
Battened, trained and tested, he doubtless and replete might live 10, the 20 less than many
     but still would carry brother ‘hame’ from dark the wilderness battle, the grim shadows dancing
I earned these scars for bearing down with gritted teeth and carving diamonds from my sorry flesh,
     Now is there any wonder the purple thunder in the dark night cavern is a woman’s hole?
          and a necessary mother to those who pay with perspiration, oiled hands
               and attend the birth of nations wealth, the rich man’s worn-silk purse, lovers mementoes
The day the siren blows like a death knell at this royal mile where only thoroughbred
   stallions enter and four maimed and broken ponies leave, drawn on a rickety cart to the bone-man
The glistening heat burns this sweat box over,  as men who are men, dream of women’s
     flesh or the soft sweet touch of a harbour friend with tattooed-bluebird and a faithful touch
In the centre of the earth only burnt goblins, wraith’s or branded saints can stand healthy
     So fathom the memory of those bruised gladiators carried from their duty unheralded
Born on the shoulders of the working classes, straight tall people who bowed their backs
     to grasp an egg omelette, a slice of dry soda bread and maybe a broiler in a pie on Sunday
These forgotten, muddied infantry of the foremost lines still treading and spreading
     Waiting on a word from God or a handout from the Pentecostal soup kitchen whose
          battered Yellow Coach-Bus they call ‘Emmy’ rolls into Market Square when all the good,
               fair people are rehearsing whispered promises and making plans for an evening with
                    solitaire, magazines and some oh so simple and po-lite conversation 
I wished I walked again in Steinbeck’s holy pages with faces wrinkled by a dagger-sun
     or scanned the white-fields where hands and figures boned,
          tend and care for ankles torn and bloodied by the day
A ‘mistral’ cat with a sharp eye is prowling hungry in the bare gorse bushes
     It’s fur is knotted brown, its clavicles and pelvis standing bare through thinnest skin
Its stalking game against a mandarin sky with its belly so full of kitten, so ripe to burst 
    A mothers face I see amid her salted torment, a face of recognition in a dry wind gusting
         this wind catching ever so lightly a chicken wing thrown from a tan-faced workman’s lunch-tin.
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writtenbyedenbray21.12.11

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Authors comment .. I think I discovered a rich vein of feeling for this piece – I think I wanted to capture the plight of the downtrodden – those who have worked so hard in tortuous circumstances for a mere pittance and little human reward so that others might benefit financially and enjoy a privileged lifestyle. I think all my work is about ‘feeling’. The saying goes ‘Manners maketh man’ and that does make for a fine saying and a catchy stanza of alliteration – but for me it is our feeling that makes us human. Compassion and kindness sets us apart from most animals. – edenbray today

My friend Jessica Phirri also commented – 04.01.2012 ~ Thank you for your rich painting of words and history and cultural distress. It really quite means something, EB. And how we take for granted the blood on our fingers! I love the pictures that you selected as well. It’s a humbling and faithful exercise to think of the downtrodden; the workers who push our world around its axis- the hands of God when we think we are our own. Your work is alive and speaking in tongues! ~ I loved these words she wrote for ‘Black Diamonds’ and I told her so. – edenbray today

#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation

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A Photo Glossary :

… Black Diamonds …

scene from ‘DAYS OF HEAVEN’
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diamond worker with muddied face
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DeBeer Diamond Mine Workers
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‘ … where only thoroughbred stallions enter and four maimed and broken ponies leave … ‘
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ANYONE WHO HAD A HEART! ~ Guest Poem

Anyone Who Had a Heart

Anyone who ever loved could look at me
And know that I love you
Anyone who ever dreamed could look at me
And know I dream of you
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Every time you go away, I always say
This time it’s goodbye, dear
Loving you the way I do
I take you back, without you I’d die dear
Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do

Knowing I love you so

Anyone who had a heart
Would take me in his arms and love me, too
You couldn’t really have a heart and hurt me
Like you hurt me and be so untrue
What am I to do …

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Lyrics to the hit song that was sung by Dionne Warwick and Cilla Black

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THE LYRISIST

THE LYRISIST

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matisse 2

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The darkest clouds – Andronicus De Marvellos

Who stepped lightly through the night

Her face caught within by so brilliant a light

Surrounded by the midnight, prussian sky

And the wail of a coloured banshee closer

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Andronicus De Marvellos – seventh daughter

of seven, pure as un-malted barley, wore no braids

She shimmied and swooned in another life

In another dress worn with petticoats and linen

Rhymed reasons and fiction, mending and cure

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In the book where it was written – Andronicus et Articus

met betrothed manners and distant relative particularis

As though all words, or songs or feelings were born not imagined

Like moonshine just occurred, n’er created by depression driven

Or those houses of nighttime painted ‘out of love’ received or given

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She walks the boards this lady fair whose gentle hands touch only joy

Andronicus De Marvellos not drawn by brawn or boyish bristle-gristle 

She feels for hope, she longs for peace – the only peaks or poise she ‘knaws

Though passion is a woman’s place et Andronicus she hides her painted claws

And through her perfumed pores sweats n’er the ugliness of mans cruel wars

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Andronicus De Marvellos with space and time and colour for the infants care

Not drawn to giving sight of flesh or honest thought she plays ‘the maidens prayer’

On pianoforte, here in Russia, Belarus, Tibet, Rome, Alexandria or Cheyenne 

The sensibilities, the fashion, discretion, the carriage that charges fast the race 

Engraved, written, rhymed – the phrases wound by pretty sound and rounded form

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writtenbyedenbray08.12.2019 

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 19

PRINCESS

Originally posted on November 7, 2011 – Re-posted 08.12.2019

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‘Princess’

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Dear one, dear heart

A moment fresh

Amidst the darkness and the clamour

is all I beg

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We creatures of the night

so starved of heaven’s light

Our hearts so calloused and

incomplete, so tainted

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Cold and hard

are worn of courser habit

Are born of regret

Into this darkened globe

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I spoke the guarded prayer 

which caused the action start

Which sparked the engine’s stir

Which rid me of my care

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Hot spears ran my cheeks

As love caught my heart

And causing me to share

the troubled nightmare

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I lived thru’ and beyond

Creatures of night then

who travel to the high seas

Who sing the songs of joy

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Relieved then now to know

I, a soldier to the end

since my heart was won

of passion, pride and urgent

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This saviour’s love to know

to know so surely

May in this rhyme I find

the prayer that to the end

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I be the soldier of a friend

So lovely and content

My prayer will never end

Dear heart, loved heart

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I speak from air so rare

That my entire reason

will ever be to guide

you on your journey fair

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writtenbyedenbray25.0.95

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This poem was written for my daughter Sarah Jane in 1995

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#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 18

WE CANNOT BUY THE MOON

Originally written and posted 05.10.2011 Abridged version re-posted 06.12.2019

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THE MOON

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WE CANNOT BUY THE MOON ~ an essay

 

I heard once that ‘the moon is not enough’ but for today we may say – we cannot buy the moon … John F. Kennedy’s eyes spangled and striped, sparkled wet when he told us that going to the moon ‘was a challenge we choose to accept’ – not, because it was easy but because it was hard … Today, while the stock markets around the world are looking to the politicians for words of wisdom, direction and encouragement, the politicians are looking blank … and no one really cares that America has effectively withdrawn from the space race. … The bankers hide with their stash of pornographed cash as the man in the street, whether wearing leather inners or down at heel sneakers, cannot even console himself with the promise of a brand new day, let alone ‘a brave new world’ … The moon, once so reachable and free to all comers, as the likes of Gagarin, alongside the likes of Armstrong and Aldrin, not only headed the cast of the original star-wars but fought for a valued supremacy … It was Uri who went for a spin in a sputnik while Neil and Buz got to go for a walk on the white sand and bring home sticks of rock for Uncle Sam … More than 50 years on from J.Ks optimistic rally call for man to seek only the very best for himself – the politicians are not telling us to – ask what we might do for our country, only that we should be realistic for the present and maybe optimistic for the future … The moon still sparkles like John-Boy’s eyes on a clear night in June but not even the moon can inspire us for now, as its ‘off-limits’ and motivational wordsmiths like Kennedy are presented as scary optimists who had personal weakness and human traits … Not like the rest of us then?!  … The scariest things for me are – the current manipulation of the masses by political stealth (at least have a go at lying to me), our almost universal acceptance of a cancerous, imbibed pacifism which can eat the very heart out of our nationality and the way that when we are alone, we find it increasingly hard to look up into our own particular – starry, starry night …

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writtenbyedenbray05.10.2011re-written06.12.2019

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btw P.J. Harvey is Immense

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#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive-prose – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 17

THE JOLLY GREEN GIANT

Originally posted on October 6th, 2011 – Written – 07.06.1986 ~ Re-posted – 05.12.2019

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THE JOLLY GREEN GIANT

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A green giant of a steamroller

All shiny green-grey metal, painted, polished

Made to work, to last, made well

Turning slowly its huge hardened drums

The thunder of which rumbles and snorts

A huge but friendly monster

         effortlessly crushing its charge

         smoothing everything into one smooth plane

The passage of time, the purpose of nature

Not lost on us all

As we struggle and purpose giving our best

The great iron wheels bloodied by sweat

Glisten, welcoming in the mid-morning light

Rolling on as waves of tide-turned sea

Turqoise green and thinned by waters edge

Lapping, lifting, rushed by moon-tide and

        drawn by tropic-sun and arctic-glare

Here before us as these islands draw close

These gentle oasis’, our consolation and ease

Here, the fond memories of youth softened

         like yellow leaves in September showers

         still ripe and dewy, the fruits thorn

         has lost its sharpened edge

         by want of feeling not of sense

Here in the midst of our busyness

         we find time to ponder for a minute and then again,

         the welcome friend, the sobre roll of timpani

         and we are again absorbed by this

         orchestrated overture, this ball of kitten wool

And when I’m drained and my struggle is over

When I hear nothing but the dense, fetal boom

         of wheels whirring and am secure

         that once embraced by such cold-hardened form

         the blacksmith’s forge could not heat

The rainbow scalded and branded in me

Glowing with an energy incandescant

When I’m crushed and utterly complete

It will be no more eyes-sight-smell-sound

It will be total!

Me and this jolly, green giant

This happy, welcome memory

Again, my nearest friend

I too will play on his machinery

I will marvel at his precision, his purpose

I will laugh as never young man did

I will taste wine as rich as mead

         drawn from the centre of the earth

I will be eternal and the mystery will fade

         and no longer shall word and thought

         stick like crushed pepper in the throat

I will rise and fly as a sea osprey

         or lift and flutter as a flight of sparrow

I will dream nothing but warmth and love

I will speak not word that is spoken

I will grow, I will shrink and not ounce of sweat

         will grease palm of hand or brow

Only joy will enchant me

         not hyena laugh, nor monkey chatter

I am pure, I am innocent

All because of this relentless pursuer

This noble steed draped in coloured cloth

         and mounted by silken gladiator

Whose face shines deeply with light

         and whose beauty merges both male and girl

His eyes blue, her cheeks ruddy

His hair golden, her neck long and slender

And if the mute colours of this torrid steed

         in soft pearl, berry pink and iced cobalt

Whose livery laced with silver studs,

         buckles and straps, glistens, enchanting

         as the white-gold of bridle and bit

         fire in the mouth and his grace stirs the senses

         like some deep surge of wonder

If all this beckons we, what need I fear

         the splash and fizzle of steam

         the gentle and insistent drone

         like a myriad army of honey-bees

The crushing ache of limbs caught

         in the vice of his attention

I am filled with admiration

I am enthused by tradition and heritage

         so regally before me

Me, this petit enfant

         this dreamer of dreams

         this explorer, voyeur

Me, this terrible romantic

I am no longer overwhelmed

I am at peace

I turn to meet this mystery

         hidden from my eyes

They blink and falter

Willingly they close

My arms open,

My mouth soft, smiles

I meet the cold hard wall

I give to it’s extended front

         and roll effortlessly

Under, over, under, over

Till I hear from singing in my ears

A haunting strain, a choir building

Like some holy opera

And when I stopped

         and told them I had met death

Their faces ashen-white

        were alarmed and they

        as re-run sportsmen

        began to rush, to them with speed

        to me like leaden-footed soldiers

        forward runners for the great, clad grinder

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                           writtenbyedenbray07.06.86

(dedicated to a good friend – Jessica Phiri 05.10.2011)

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I love it. My Jolly Green Giant used to be my bicycle. I literally felt I was a part of the pavement, the dirt, the grass, the wind. Thank you for exposing your vast inner world. JRKP

– A comment left by my good literary friend – Jessica Phiri ~ October 11, 2011

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 16

FACING OUR HISTORY

Originally posted – 06/09.09.19 – Amended – 04.12.2019 – Re-posted 04.12.2019

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Facing our History

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I walked down to the sea today

and saw a ship on the horizon

I held my face to the cold, grey wind

and thought of happier days.

Of course the sea – brazen, raw and honest

can be a powerful friend

Yet, I live below its surface

where the dark fish bite

Where lost treasure and squandered moments

lay like basking sharks hungry

I hear and see sad tales and lively stories

of old salts and damaged ladies

How relentless the waves

tossed green-grey and golden

However torrid, spangled, white capped

or laden with deep and murky mystery

This meeting of the ways where

so many pointed moments collide

Where the past is formed, shaped, washed

then purged by natures mother  

I can see the whole roll of  history

from here, spread out before me

The tumbling horses, mossed breakers,

sea washed milestones like sentinels

Timeframes: sticky posts, where the past

spills out like discoloured photographs

The sum of our hidden, saved and

universal, collective memories

I always touch the shoreline to

‘fold away’ now Sunday tea is cleared

There are none others with me

upon this desolate beach

While so many thoughts and persons

do sunder and suffer in this abyss of memory

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writtenbyedenbray06/09.09.2011

ammended-04.12.2019

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Authors note :- This poem was written at a time of personal reflection after illness and it deals with a recurring theme in much of my work :-

‘We were born involved with one another’

My history, your history – although relatively very dissimilar can become curiously enmeshed quite suddenly when we begin to be honest with each other and reveal the people that we are and those fundamentals that have effected all peoples from all walks of life begin to appear from the murky past of our human histories’.

– Deep maybe – but entirely fascinating as are we all – Hope you enjoy –

edenbray-today 

 

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