EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 3

NEGATIVE WHAT’S NEGATIVE?

A short comment essay

I know it’s a popular idiom these days. Become a bit of a cliché – ‘I’m a glass half empty sort of person’ and all that psychobabble but setting all that claptrap aside. I seem to have been dogged by people’s negative attitudes all my life and don’t it get you down? Nothings gonna empty your half glass quicker than a dose of negative pessimism and for me it centres on the preoccupation we have with filing. People love to put things in boxes, labelled boxes and then run the events of life, the people they meet, the situations encountered, whether good, bad, dramatic or surprising through a sieve labelled ‘MY PREJUDICED AND CONSIDERED VIEWPOINT’.

How many people have you met who truly try to keep an open mind when meeting life, people or events? We limit our perceptions to pre-judged, predefined conclusions.

Well I’m sorry to sound superior, arrogant or of an inflated self-importance but I don’t pre-judge and I make it a discipline not to label things, people or situations.

Every now and again however I admit, I lose that healthy mental ‘glow’ and succumb to rounding on anything, anyone and any situation that holds the smallest worm of negativity. Anything that’s not bright, full of promise or all-embracing I hate. Any viewpoint that is closeted, bigoted, xenophobic, myopic and rooted in tradition or what I call ‘ugly’ religion I reject and totally avoid any confrontation or dalliance with.

This makes me wonder are the negative Nellie’s and pessimistic Peter’s just people with a really great attitude who are just fed up meeting people with negative attitudes?

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writtenbyedenbray17.01.11

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This Essay posted as part of an #Edenbray retrospective and re-posted today for a new generation!

NEGATIVE WHATS NEGATIVE ?

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HYACINTH …

Hyacinth

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I would never have put this out, so seemingly strangely

It took me over like a whirlwind over Polynesian islands

The absence of joy somehow only increases our paranoia

The deep hurts we carry become more the trials of each day

The mountain higher, the road longer, in search of your smile

And Hyacinth, so pretty though her voice is cracked & broken

Her white teeth describing sallow cheeks, both dusky and brown

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We all invest in princes, knights, saints, it is our common plan,

We light our fires & raise a glass to a statue of the common man

The civilisation of masses leaves the albatross alone to wander

Humility so lost to the children of techno where megabyte rules

And bandaids became a solitary punctuation of our compassion

Where once knelt nuns, friars surrendered to the hope of heaven

Hyacinth Maharajh ~ just a distant recall on a lonely mountain 

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writtenbyedenbray07.11.19

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EDENBRAY – RETROSPECTIVE – 2

 

ACCEPTANCE

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Pressed hard against the midnight sky
A crescent moon, a pleasant face
A mountain of blue feelings
A grey apple, bitten and luscious
Long mascara eyelashes, a fringed frame
The whisper of wind and the solitude of a happy hello
Hazy sunset, lemon clouds and orange the magnet
to our hopes, dreams and fears
Hold me hard and long, I will not escape
I cannot stray, I am forbidden cunning
This is my rendezvous, my premiere
and the gaslight flickers on me
The amber glow a welcome mat
Yes, give me this excuse to rewrite the tale
and the night prussian and neutral
Will like a playlet backdrop
Capture your advance and clap me
with a motion reprise

writtenbyedenbray19.06.90

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I originally wrote this piece on the theme of acceptance in 1990.
People generally find it very hard to accept people as they are
without first imposing conditions, classifications and judgmental views
based on their personal observations and conclusions built up from life’s experiences, what we commonly refer to as ‘dogma’ and yet we all long to be accepted, to ‘belong’ and be ‘accepted’ for who we are… .    edenbray 

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#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation!

LINKhttps://edenbray.wordpress.com/2011/01/25/acceptance/

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EDENBRAY ~ RETROSPECTIVE – 1

NOT ARRANGED …

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a pome

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love, sweet and sensitive,

softer,

subtler,

fresher,

freer,

Not pall, not mixed,

not arranged,

manipulated,

fixed.

Love needed, love desired,

Love given, love admired,

Love wanted, love received,

Full of energy, never tired,

This friend, this power, this endless aid,

This companion to the end.

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writtenbyEdenbray27.05.1990

revised~08.06.1990

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I used to write a lot of poetry.

I’m not sure when I stopped writing poetry but it feels like it was 9/11 or some other sad experience that silenced the voice within me that had commentated on my life’s experiences since I was about 15 years of age and around 1966. I hope that this blog will become as important as the numerous notebooks and pads I have previously inscribed stuff in and used to write in.

Eden Bray is born ugly, ill formed, wet and covered in blood, mucous and bodily functions. This effluence is the experience of my short life and all I have as reference. Eden Bray will not apologise for this but may in time win your heart and soul. Entrance you, entertain you, amuse you, admonish you, shock you or make you cry. Please god he will not be a gigantic bore and send you off to sleep but then even this may have merit.

Ciou – eb 27.05.1990

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#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation! 

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OLDE MANN

From my sister BLOG – Edenbray – my latest POEM – please like and leave comments if you do!

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Olde Mann

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Banyanamin’s reign – the oil ran sweetly on this, his Holy isle’s embrace

Adorned as if with golden crown – of sweat and bone and fur and entrance

Candid skies, circle of morning grey neath both tha’ bronzed n’broiled long hae’ther 

Such starlight eyes, so burning sentinels within any weather bruised nor fine

Grizzled, matted and thick locked-hair hangs, sweet rabbit-pelts on a poachers pole

This prince, championed by his sternest stare, snorts and swallows purest air

Haunches bowed, the neck, the sinews set, the collar, adorned this chosen parapet 

As if the day were born in summer-sun be bears against the cold, ash-broken night

Purveys a scene of longest sight, to stamp, to wrestle, then to shout his hollow roar 

Of beasts ancient, memories found, not caged or bound – the wolf, the bear, the boar

And Beowulf, vacant ghost of lands, rocks and nature’s grist…

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O MARIE!

O’ MARIE

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TANGLED IN WEED

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He was tangled in weed, tangled in weed

Distanced by her lip-gloss smile

Stranded, marooned, curtailed, ejected

He wandered the earth looking for solace

For a rolled pillow on which he may lay his head

Not a soft, rich bosom, nor a lapful of gold

A regular soldier’s palette bed made of straw

A welcome word, a familiar smile, a kind gesture

Not even a knot of grass woven by careworn hands

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When sense and reason mend he saw through the amber

He saw the drunken Lord which had made him smile

Pavement stones wet, not wet with sweat, or blood or tears

What waste of time? what futility? what hands he’d held? 

What moments lost? what frailty? what arms so cold?

He brushed a woman’s arm, although she had not minded

Not blinded, had been kind in blue, not cold of feeling

Feelings true, feelings that once grew and slew dragons

Marie you hurt no one but yourself & ole dismembered me

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writtenbyedenbray10.09.2019 

 

 

 

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DESOLATION ROW – Guest Poem

DESOLATION ROW

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They’re selling postcards of the hanging
They’re painting the passports brown
The beauty parlor is filled with sailors
The circus is in town
Here comes the blind commissioner
They’ve got him in a trance
One hand is tied to the tight-rope walker
The other is in his pants
And the riot squad, they’re restless
They need somewhere to go
As lady and I look out tonight, from Desolation Row

Cinderella, she seems so easy
“It takes one to know one,” she smiles
And puts her hands in her back pockets, Bette Davis-style
And in comes Romeo, he’s moaning
“You Belong to me, I believe”
And someone says, “You’re in the wrong place
My friend, you better leave”
And the only sound that’s left after the ambulances go
Is Cinderella sweeping up on Desolation Row

Now the moon is almost hidden
The stars are beginning to hide
The fortune telling lady
Has even taken all her things inside
All except for Cain and Abel and the hunchback of Notre Dame

Everybody is making love or else expecting rain
And the good Samaritan, he’s dressing
He’s getting ready for the show
He’s going to the carnival tonight on Desolation Row

Now Ophelia, she’s ‘neath the window
For her I feel so afraid
On her twenty-second birthday she already is an old maid
To her, death is quite romantic, she wears an iron vest
Her profession’s her religion, her sin is her lifelessness
And though her eyes are fixed upon Noah’s great rainbow
She spends her time peeking into Desolation Row

Einstein, disguised as Robin Hood
With his memories in a trunk
Passed this way an hour ago with his friend, a jealous monk
He looked so immaculately frightful as he bummed a cigarette
As he went off sniffing drainpipes and reciting the alphabet

Now you would not think to look at him
But he was famous long ago
For playing the electric violin on Desolation Row

Dr. Filth, he keeps his world inside of a leather cup
But all his sexless patients, they’re trying to blow it up
Now his nurse, some local loser
She’s in charge of the cyanide hole
And she also keeps the cards that read
“Have mercy on his soul”
They all play on the penny whistles, you can hear them blow
If you lean your head out far enough from Desolation Row

Across the street they’ve nailed the curtains
They’re getting ready for the feast
The Phantom of the Opera, a perfect image of a priest
They’re spoon-feeding Casanova
To get him to feel more assured
Then they’ll kill him with self-confidence
After poisoning him with words
And the Phantom’s shouting to skinny girls
“Get outta here if you don’t know
Casanova is just being punished for going to Desolation Row”

Now at midnight all the agents and the superhuman crew
Come out and round up everyone that knows more than they do
Then they bring them to the factory
Where the heart-attack machine
Is strapped across their shoulders and then the kerosene
Is brought down from the castles by insurance men who go
Check to see that nobody is escaping to Desolation Row

Praise be to Nero’s Neptune, the Titanic sails at dawn
And everybody’s shouting, “Which side are you on?”
And Ezra Pound and T.S. Eliot fighting in the captain’s tower
While calypso singers laugh at them
And fishermen hold flowers
Between the windows of the sea where lovely mermaids flow
And nobody has to think too much about Desolation row

Yes, I received your letter yesterday
About the time the doorknob broke
When you asked me how I was doing
Was that some kind of joke?
All these people that you mention
Yes, I know them, they’re quite lame
I had to rearrange their faces
And give them all another name
Right now, I can’t read too good
Don’t send me no more letters, no
Not unless you mail them from Desolation Row

Guest Poem: Songwriter: Bob Dylan

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edenbray comments:~

ALAN GINSBERG STATED BACK IN THE 60’s/70’S THAT DYLAN WAS THE ONLY TRUE POET OF THE 20TH CENTURY – PERHAPS HARSH ON QUITE A FEW OUTSTANDING WRITERS THAT COME TO MIND FROM THAT PERIOD – BUT THEN AGAIN IN PIECES LIKE ‘DESOLATION ROW’ – DYLAN IS AT HIS MOST ACCOMPLISHED – POURING OUT VITRIOLIC METAPHOR AND ROMANTIC AFFECTION WITH THE SAME BREATH WHILE APPLYING SURREAL MAD-HATTER STYLE SATIRE WITH RELENTLESS, COMIC VICISSITUDE –

AT THIS STAGE OF HIS LIFE – DYLAN WAS INDEED ‘CENTRE-STAGE’ AND LOVING EVERY MEANINGFUL SECOND OF IT – THE WORDS JUST TUMBLE OFF HIS TONGUE LIKE SMOOTH, BURNING OIL – HE IS ALL THAT GINSBERG SAID HE WAS, MORE ACTUALLY AND A TROUBADOUR TO BOOT! – HEART-WARMING SATIRE THAT REEKS OF ORWELL’S – CLERGYMEN’S DAUGHTER, KEROUAC’S – ‘ON THE ROAD’ WITH MAYBE JUST A SLICE OF CLOCKWORK ORANGE ON THE SIDE – A VERITABLE COCKTAIL OF HAND-GRENADE LINES!

🍊they don’t make them like that anymore – except that you ignore MOZ at your peril! #Morrissey

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DELILAH’S THORNY BUSH

Delilah’s Thorny Bush

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Obsession was never ever the mother of invention

The host always has the advantage over the willing guest

We all long for the valley even when on the mountain tops

Deep down in the gulley, it is both verdant, fertile and warm

On the high plains, on the bare, smooth face of liaison

The impulse, the draw, the gratitude of Rosemary’s smile

No, we are never sure how strong we are or could be

Put to the test we might all crack under extreme torture

For temptation is a torture, as I pass that glass ‘candle’

and light the alcohol wick that burns contentedly at both ends

I often waltz with a dream through my amber haze

I dreamed I met the president and the 1st lady once, they were fake

In the absence of reality there are moments of almost divine pleasure

Like when I first saw Delilah’s real smile by the thorny bush

Awkward, disarmed, overcome by the weakness and the longing

Samson was only a man after all and muscle is never insight

The waves rush on, the tide never tires, it rises it falls

Behemoth, when was it we collided? – I forget things thats true!

But Delilah walks with a confident gate within her armoury

The ‘knowledge’ that she knows the way around one fool or the other

Lead me on then my sweetest Delilah, I’ll be your willing fool tonight

Take my will away till I am tangled in the thorny bush

Like Abram’s son and heir!

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writtenbyedenbray09.06.19

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THE SWITCH IN OUR HEADS

THE SWITCH IN OUR HEADS

.. a simple tale of anger & subterfuge

Marlon fingered the marbled, glass cubes he held in his other hand

His fingers explored the shallow dints like he was feeling his woman’s body

He enjoyed the gentle scrape as they rubbed against each other.

Six, three, one and two, he turned them over individually,

The door had opened at the far end of the wooden, polished room floor

that gleamed in the sunlight, that lit the darkened room like a Hopper panel

with all the richest, darkest tones and the two men in full view eyed each other.

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The painting itself was around 12 feet by 6 and hung on the one un-windowed wall

It was a massive landscape of the Wyoming Oil Fields caught in late afternoon sun,

Full of rugged detail with long grasses and a low, broken and wired fence

It ran off into the middle-distance providing focus to an otherwise featureless daub

Yet Marlon loved it as it offered hope and a breath of perspective to his city life

He often stood, legs splayed, hand on chin, comfortably content in its vast scape

Today it provided only back-drop scenery to this drama, too late to reconvene

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Angry words ensued as the men shouted the length of the sun-splattered hall

Bill’s face grimaced, almost contorted spat disdain and unforgiveness

Marlon could not have explained his point of view with more restraint

He pleaded that the case had other outcomes, violence was not necessary

Bill was carrying a weapon which he flailed, describing patterns in the air

By now Marlon’s good arm had raised and he pulled the trigger with control

Bill crumpled, fell awkwardly and the dice bounced loose on the polished floor!

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writtenbyedenbray05.06.2019

 

 

 

 

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ENTITY & ARCHED INGENUITY SPAWNED

Entity and Arched Ingenuity Spawned

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I am a defender of the free spirit, a champion of the open mind

A bastion of the right to speak, a marvellous moment in the day

That shines silver in the new dawn of mans reason & determination

That echoes with the resonance of artistic thought; creative intellect

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writtenbyedenbray13.05.2019

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