EDENBRAY in EXILE – 37 – rejection

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of 50 Poems, Articles and Essays

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Rejection

AN UNFINISHED POEM

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The snow of 1963

The snow of ’63

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That bad winter when the snow was piled high was the first shot

It ricocheted on ice leaving a double echo hanging in the frozen air

As it slid, an arctic sidewinder, the full length of a tortured sled-track

Not sure if Etienne had said to me, Is there something more I can do?

That I would have learned to cry then, those tears that melt the snow

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Something looms over the banks, over the deep crusted hard-pack

It’s a silence you can hear, the shadow of a huge bird passing

When you know you are alone, even with people in your home

We never learn to be lonely, we bring it when we pass the gorge

From eternity’s darkest night into history’s brightest dawn

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Icy glaciers run cold today with the missing tears of that golden age

When ignorance raped nature’s store and turned her to a common whore

But when the second shot rang out and the curtain fell in Dallas

Jackie held her husband’s brains in tender hands and we all cried

For the baby-boomers like me and Jen, something genuine that day died

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And then upon the snowy scapes, we learn to love again

Plunge our hands into the icy flow and watch the mountain grow

Within an atmosphere of coldest breath, without the hostility of death

Pluck the sweetest flowers born, shout the loudest words we’ve ever sworn

Curse the mighty behemoth from his slumber, with eyes of red and thunder

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Then a third shot sounded, it took me down, limp and broken to the ground

Ice drained deep beneath my skin, the cruelest capers speak the ugliest sin

To turn away a heart as trusting on a night as cold and rank was disgusting

The snow leopard pads the highest parts, a mother learns to bare her heart

To make her family sure and safe when life’s harsh moments scrape their face

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A berry picked, shared or given, to the cub with no will for living

Rain falling in the desert, coats for street children, kind words to a victim

Abuse of child-love cannot be measured, love that always should be treasured

When the skip returns to a broken step, its’s always love that lays that path

Not else can light that darkest shaft into the misery of a soul’s rejected past

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always unfinished .. .

writtenbyedenbray26/03/2018

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‘.. . love that always should be treasured’

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A PHOTO GLOSSARY OF TERMS USED for THE UNFINISHED POEM

“REJECTION”

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DALLAS – November 1963

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‘Icy glaciers run cold today with the missing tears of that golden age’

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‘It’s a silence you can hear, the shadow of a huge bird passing’

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‘For the baby-boomers like me and Jen, something genuine that day died’

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‘Pluck the sweetest flowers born, shout the loudest words we’ve ever sworn’

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.The snow leopard pads the highest parts, a  she-mother learns to bare her heart’

paw

‘A berry picked, shared or given, to the cub with no will for living’

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GLOSSARY:- Ettienne – Steve

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#Authors Note : Good poetry should contain a hint of mystery and enigma, that is my view. I do not say this by way of introducing my own piece here reviewed, but out of tact and tasteful consideration and to introduce an idea. Neither would I wish to suggest that in my view – my poetry is either ‘good’ or even close.

Rejection – AN UNFINISHED POEM it turns out is of a most experimental notion. The notion that domestic pain and distress may be healed but still leave a scar that even the most repaired and readjusted will find themselves fingering from time, to time. Whether out of sad regret or of painful scarred-tissue memory, the victim rarely mounts the horse it fell from without a second thought.

At this sad time amidst the turmoil of the Covid-19 pandemic we have been made aware of those for whom lockdown adds no relief from suffering as they themselves are victims of another curse – their abusive domestic partners or parents.

Rejection is another silent foe that niggles, undermines and hampers its victims for years as clearly as those in post-virus recuperation may find in the coming days, denying quality of life and peace within, as certainly as those who harbour painful memories of a more physical nature.

Not wishing to necessarily ‘blow the gaff’ on this piece or ‘tell tale’ but the novel notion this verse conceals and reveals in pretty much equal quantity, is that those shots that rang out in Dallas in November 1963 at the assassination of JFK provide a kind of terrible punctuation to the telling of my biographical story of personal pain around that same time in the early sixties. The JFK narrative provides a ballast to my sad story, according to the thinking that there is always someone with a sadder tale to tell than our own.

                                                                                                               ~   edenbraytoday

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 36 – oldfield

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of 50 Poems, Articles and Essays

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Oldfield

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Is taking the time

Whose taken the train

Or followed the line

To where the end is before the beginning?

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Whole nights wasted and forlorn

Pasted in albums

With yellow ends torn

Not even buried, not ever drawn

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Fake moments dressed

Cold cake, cold flesh

Peppered bold, worn yet stressed

A layman’s cove

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#Authors Note : I have included this piece in its barest and most basic form as the 36th submission in a 2nd Retrospective Anthology of 50 Edenbray Poems, Articles & Essays ~ Originally published post-2013.

‘Oldfield’ was written out of literary respect for the work of Langston Hughes, a writer who I very much admire and who formulated a style of prose which came to be known by the term ‘Jazz Poetry’. Although this piece does not purport to copycat the style of Langston Hughes its imitation is more in consequence of an attempt to respond in kind by recreating the same rhythm, natural form and the same skeletal structure. What you might term antipleonasm~ edenbraytoday 

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Harlem

BY  LANGSTON  HUGHES

What happens to a dream deferred?
Does it dry up
like a raisin in the sun?
Or fester like a sore—
And then run?
Does it stink like rotten meat?
Or crust and sugar over—
like a syrupy sweet?
Maybe it just sags
like a heavy load.
Or does it explode?

 

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 35 – love letters

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of 50 Poems, Articles and Essays

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Love Letters

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We take the scenes of lost refuge

and write them on our sleeves

Bend spoons we use as implements

like ancient man hiding in rocks

Pioneers caught somewhere between

bandits, lawyers and pilots

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We sat under the stars pulling wool

around us, throwing logs on fires

The sky prussian and chrome has lights

embedded ~ that shape your beauty

I scribbled on rough pieces of hemp I had

collected and wondered if it was you

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In the grey mid-distance lights shoot

and dance to the crackling gunfire

Maybe this is the moment I should stop now

~ we’ve said hello, so goodbye

And the summer sun will return to this

awful place and touch your brow

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writtenbyedenbray05.04.14

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#Authors Note : This is a War Poem – it was written 100 years after the ‘1st World War’ began.

28 July 1914 – 11 November 1918

It was written by someone who has absolutely no experience of War 1st hand. I wrote it as my own personal and pathetic remembrance of that horrific War as I wanted to make some personal connection and still write about something I think I know something about. It is a Love Poem.

During the so-called Great War it is estimated 21,391,452 people were killed or died.

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The chart below provides estimates of the number of soldiers killed, wounded, and reported missing during World War I. Exact numbers are often disputed and are nearly impossible to determine for a variety of reasons. Different countries used different methods to count their dead and injured, and some methods were more reliable than others. Records of some countries were destroyed during the war and its aftermath. Also, some countries may have changed the number of casualties in their official records for political reasons. The numbers of civilians from each country killed during the war are even more difficult to estimate. The numbers in the chart reflect the estimates made by most historians today. ~ (chart borrowed from Facing History and Ourselves)

Country Total mobilized forces Killed or died

Wounded Prisoners or missing Total casualties
Allied Powers:
Russia 12,000,000 1,700,000 4,950,000 2,500,000 9,150,000
British Empire 8, 904,467 908,371 2,090,212 191,652 3,190,235
France

8,410,000 1,357,800 4,266,000 537,000 6,160,800
Italy 5,615,000 650,000 947,000 600,000 2,197,000
United States 4,734,991 116,516 204,002 —— 320,518
Japan 800,000 300 907 3 1210
Romania 750,000 335,706 120,000 80,000 535,706
Serbia 707,343 45,000 133,148 152,198 331,106
Canada

424,000 59,694 172,000 3,800

235,494
Belgium 267,000 13,716 44,686 34,659 93,061
Greece 230,000 5,000 21,000 1,000 27,000
Portugal 100,000 7,222 13,751 12,318 33,291
Montenegro 50,000 3,000 10,000 7,000 20,000
TOTALS 42,612,810 5,211,809 13,003,004 4,124,890 22,165,291
Central Powers:
Germany 11,000,000 1,773,700 4,216,058 1,152,800 7,142,558
Austria-Hungary 7,800,000 1,200,000 3,620,000 2,200,000 7,020,000
Turkey 2,850,000 325,000 400,000 250,000 975,000
Bulgaria 1,200,000 87,500 152,390 27,029 266,919
TOTALS 22,850,000 3,386,200 8,388,448 3,629,829 15,404,477
GRAND TOTALS 65,462,810 8,598,009 21,391,452 7,754,719 37,569,768

 

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 34 – natreana

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of 50 Poems, Articles and Essays

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Natreana

a tale of Baladin

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Eberus, a tall, lithe warrior dressed in fur and dusted by the plains of Maraballa, knelt and looked far beyond the deep purple hills of Sysophola.

His heart was heavier than the cargo of a sea barge drifting on the Aratteus after a months hunting and trawling for pescuthus.

He viewed the herd of Atruscean antelope that carried such rich, dark meat, little fat & fetched good bounty at the Gerder market each first day.

Natreana had not spoken to him for six days now and this after they had shared that special moment while he visited – carrying forest truffle.

He nursed the knife her jagged eye lodged in his open heart, the wound where only torn emotion and passion lie side by side.

When they were joined by thought and imagination he knew her heart raced with his and by now he were chasing the insolent deer.

Who grazed on autumn coloured grasses, trimmed, and so languid as Eberus who contemplated turning his  dagger inward to end his mire.

Why is love the hardest, the slowest and the most painful night while it also causeth the step to quicken, the countenance to lighten and a smile?

For these thoughts the deer were now left to tripping, gambling, running and to breathing free as the night prussian and dark fell upon them.

writtenbyedenbray08.12.2015

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#Authors Note : Another Tale of Baladin, whom we have met before and this an unlisted Tale as well. There are 9 such Numbered Tales and the last regarding Baladin the Wolfmaster to be found and each is a mythology and a fantasy. For Baladin is a pro-ven seer, a prophet Sir and a Storyteller Regal with a memory near old as the wind and he so travelled with such wise counsel.

So to this Tale regarding the fair Natreana and her lover Eberus – a Tale so similar in points of interest found to a much earlier and longer piece entitled ~ Concerning Andriose and Methuen which in the stakes of this mythology has led many to consider there are Truths current in both Tales enough to warrant they speak of a Daughter somewhere in Baladin’s past history that he does so long to speak of, yet, some great sadness preventeth him so to do but causeth him to write of her in Tales; or prevented him, as now the Long ships have long since departed and taken our Regal Storyteller far away aboard the Hringhorni.

For sooth, you may likely thank the works of Tolkien, Lewis, Aesop, the Bard himself, Greeks & Norsks & Moses’ ‘Book’ itself from whence such hopeless imagination runs.                                                                                                                                 edenbraytoday

 

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 33 – the willow awl

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of 50 Poems, Articles and Essays

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The Willow Awl

the willow awl

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To take this moment and spread a shawl

Around and over our many hedged thoughts

Of where and when we ever set a compass

Or drew lines to our reasoned, grey target

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The object of every night’s star or dream

It is in this fondness for the subject

That fits so smoothly in the palm of your hand

A useful, treasured friend, a kind of hand to hold

 

writtenbyedenbray02.03.2017

editedbyedenbray09.07.2017

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#Authors Note: This piece should be given the sub-heading ~ A Celebration of Subtlety or An appreciation of fond things we love – possibly unaccountably! A potentially gentle and thoughtful piece, in contrast to the many more intense subjects I have tackled as a writer.

It gains entrance to my ’50 Edenbray in Exile’ Retrospective Poems List for precisely that reason. Into my 5th week now of LOCKDOWN during the COVID-19 Pandemic crisis and I think we all crave a little more genteel subtlety, aside from Government Information Press Conferences, tragic news bulletins, our restrictive living space, repetitive lifestyle, personal anxieties and natural family concerns. What better way to unwind than with a passage of calm prose, written around a treasured tool but in actuality a prompt for a much deeper philosophical, morally challenging and uncompromising discussion than you might think. Please enjoy from whatever standpoint you may arrive! – The Willow Awl ~                                                                                                                                           edenbraytoday

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 32 – honey pot

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of Poetry, Articles and Essays

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HONEY POT

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The uncomfortable truth

Like a swollen river flooding

Carries purpose with waste

And a tune you may only whistle

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No one can hold a soft, black moth

Or a paper fly in a calloused hand

Without damage or bruising conscience

It’s a deceit you are forced to learn

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That face I love has grown older now

Innocence creased, wan and leathered

It still holds the memory that burns

Worth more now the envelopes open

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Things go with you to the grave

Not just secrets, lies or murder

Words unspoken, silent confessions,

Quiet prayers queuing for an answer

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In that velvet, purple journal

Love’s treasured moments rest

They glisten in their infancy

Colours of a pheasants chest

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Lives lived with faces to the wall

Harsh choices made in haste

Loyalty a dark knight, 

Filiality a burnished, beaten sword

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Hold it tight together

Your arms wrapped round it’s chest

What’s good, what’s brave, what’s honest

Dressed in gold, a silken vest

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   writtenbyedenbray27.01.2017

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#Authors Note: I’m sure it will have been argued somewhere and at some time or other – large and long – that the writer writes better under pressure. Under pressure of pain, of sense, of feeling, of travail, of persecution, of rage, of passion, of concern, of charity, of compassion, of regret, of guilt, of pride, of remorse, of resolve, of defence, of accusation, of belief – of love.

I loved the Honey Pot.                                                          edenbraytoday

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 31 – the flag

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of Poetry, Articles and Essays

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THE FLAG

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We fold the flag away

Either by length or width

Never by height or colour

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We listen to the neighbours woe

Cover our eyes gladly with the corn

That grows through our window

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Swaying in the breeze gently

Golden corn we hold in our hands

The summer fun has begun

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So sadly the flag now folded

Of causes, conflicts and clatter

Things now that no longer matter

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writtenbyedenbray02.02.2015

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illustration: by edenbray ~ ‘the man with the wooden gun’

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#Authors Note :  Just 20 more Poems, Articles & Essays will complete Edenbray’s 2nd Retrospective Anthology – Those written Post – 2013 will sit alongside an Earlier Compilation Posted – late  2019 – early 2020.

This piece and/or the notes around it do not represent any strong personal political or anti-democratic view – they represent a purely, artistic and hypothetical submission – more along the lines of a – what if? An Imagine-2 – if you like? I only add this as an extra rider not out of fear or misunderstanding but to support the artistic freedom and idealism edenbrays whole portfolio represents. ~ ”The personal life is not dead’ 

‘The Flag’ was inspired by an Oil Painting by the Author  –  which was completed in early 1986. The painting itself although not my greatest work I feel does has a certain naivete and contains a powerful hypotheses. The painting depicts a “Universal Soldier” standing in a muddy field of battle and in front of a Universal Flag ,with no recognisable link to any nationality, creed or religion – The soldier is carrying a fake, replica, wooden rifle, basically a piece of shaped industrial timber – The theme of the Painting is loosely based on the lyric from John Lennon’s early 1970’s song –‘Imagine’ which dramatically challenged the Author at the age of 20 years and helped greatly in his spiritual development at that time.

The ‘wooden gun’ idea concept was introduced from a separate source – a shared dream – that a troubled, young, pentecostal bible-student called Michael told me about over a curry way back in 1972. The imagery related to an interpretation of a dream Michael had that concerned the devil himself and which suggested that Satan worries us and threatens us but actually has no effective weapon to destroy us as his weapon is a bluff, a harmless wooden gun!

I decided to ‘smash’ these two concepts into the one painting and while the Poem includes no obvious non-nationalistic or non-religious imagery it is written in the same style as the painting excepting that it is a lot more ‘unplugged’ and minimalistic.

As with a lot of these chosen Retrospective selections – this piece, written 5 years ago, seems to gel uncannily with the mood of life we have today in 2020, while under Covid-19  Lockdown restrictions.  ~.  edenbraytoday

 

Imagine
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Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion, too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You, you may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you will join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
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John Lennon.   –    Inspired reference
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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 30 – reconfigure

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of Poetry, Articles and Essays

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RECONFIGURE

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Handfuls, he heaped handfuls

Were they petals, branches or fruit?

The monochrome diary glowed suddenly

He had been asleep for hours in band aids

Things his mother had said, bits of arse

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There was a hut he had painted golden

and yellowed bears teeth

He always felt better in the mornings

When Arnott was around anyway

Her mouth, her hair, her eyes

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This careworn morning he imagined

He saw skyrockets and fantails

People strolling, coming to lunch

Roll of green notes in his blue pocket

No grey pain to shake him down

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Always Fenna standing on Bella’s rock

Wearing boxers and a tantalising smile

Like a siren tug in granite sea

Where ships come to rest awkwardly

Bold barnacles grip black with tenacity

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This summers day

The swallows returned purple

He was sure he would see a rainbow

Write letters in wet sand

Take his notebook off the wall

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writtenbyedenbray27.05.2014

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Authors Note :  I feel sure a reviewer would say – the author of this little piece of wonderment is not afraid to take risks.

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I personally find this poem tantalising – Its staccato, edgy, humorous, unpredictable in a both ‘careering’ and ‘personal’ kind of way. Its subjective, mesmeric – but, it never strays from its purpose.- which is – to tell its story! Its obviously ‘biographic, challenging, lyrical, double-muffin golden, 

The oddest thing about many of these retrospective pieces is for me – how well they appear to fit in with the way things are currently in the midst of a lockdown, pandemic society. This poem was written in 2014.   

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This careworn morning he imagined

He saw skyrockets and fantails

People strolling, coming to lunch

~  edenbraytoday

 

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EDENBRAY in EXILE – 29 – the old oak tree

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of Poetry, Articles and Essays

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THE OLD OAK TREE


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The old oak tree

makes an ancient eery sound

Its roots spread out

deep within the ground

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The great old oak tree

is a worthy sight to see

I wish something like that

could be said of me

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writtenbyedenbray1971

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edenbray’s – Brave New World Collection ~ an introduction

#Authors Note : In keeping with the aims of this current Retrospective Anthology of written works by Edenbray since 2013 – to provide a rounded body of varied work from different time-scales – today’s selection is as accurate a rendition as memory serves of a piece written around 1970/71 – nearly 50 years ago!. The poem was originally one of five diverse pieces that were accepted for a publication entitled ‘This Britain’ which went on sale to the general public at that time.

This piece was the quieter and more reflective selection of the five which included four other Poems that challenged society, social values, politics, law, order and police enforcement, drug use, abuse and experience among other powerful issues. 

The Poems themselves were regrettably mislaid and I have since made repeated attempts to rewrite them – if not word for word – then with the aim of capturing the same optimism, verve, colour and intensity I remember they were so brim full of.

I now call these Poems my personal “Brave New World Poems” and I hope to publish the remaining four re-writes on this Blog-site very shortly under the title –       edenbraytoday

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EDENBAY in EXILE – 28 – georges roualt

‘Edenbray in Exile’

A Retrospective Anthology of Poetry, Articles and Essays

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GEORGES ROUALT

an appreciation

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This artist consistently escapes the art critics preoccupation with labelling and classifications …

The artist – his painting & his philosophy are generally watered down … not so with Georges Roualt.

His work sits raw … pulsating in a corner of its own … 

He paints his feelings, daubs his emotions, bears his soul … yes, his darkest most personal and inner self … in Roualt’s world he is invisible, transparent, he has nothing to hide …

He has no shame – as an artist, no guilt appropriated or applied … His colours describe his humanity …

His line is exaggerated, rough and uneven … at the same time tempered, deft, perceptive  …

He sees what he sees … as an artist … a true artist … his line describing his personal vision

He defines that line perfectly … like a blind man painting a woman  …

He makes love with his art … his love is awkward, fumbling, over-wrought with passion and a rough energy … He dominates his work while showing enormous sensitivity … he touches the raw spirit and flesh like no other artist  …  

His work transcends time … its not modern, nor traditional … … it speaks to both … it roars, murmurs … it moans … it lives?!

Georges Roualt absorbed his art like a parent gull and in his art he disgorges warm chunks of life in palatable pieces that we ‘subadults’ may comfortably digest … with no fear of choking … 

Give time to Roualt’s work and it will touch you … make you human again.

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writtenbyedenbray10.02.2015

re-writtenbyedenbray22.04.2020

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< on the left ~ edenbray’s attempt at  ROUALT’s superb ECCO HOMO > 

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