I had dreamed it would be like this

    it should never end

Not a cloud to spoil the day

    not a chill wind

    dancing eyes, we were happy


I sat in the long grass

    felt the soft moisture on the palms of my feet

Drooped with my head between my knees

    I ran my fingers through the green


Two birds chattered and chased

    a fly hummed near

    and another

    I saw a bee .. .


Moments like this

    stranded like soldiers between fronts, musing

I have no future

    just pleasant past and now

    what of it?


So taking the football, nicely round

    firm, full of air with no punctures

I placed it on the green

    and we started to play,



I faced the enemy, I had made it fun

    I accepted the inevitable and for a moment I laughed

Lurking in the dark bushes

    faces peered, angry faces

    troubled faces


I saw them for a moment

    I feared them and looked away

I headed the ball

    I had scored a goal



As I ran back, I saw the troubled faces

    So, in my joy I looked longer

I spoke to the troubled faces and they were gone

    Lost, like night’s phantoms

    I had faced the enemy, I had made it fun

.. .



Authors Note:- I found two old journals of verse that I wrote in the 1980’s during my thirties and even younger and I was struck by their freshness and minimalist naiveté.

I have enjoyed reading them, almost as though they were written by someone else. They speak of aspirations, of faith and hope which is what I believe we all need right now. There is a nice Kerouac naturalness about them too so I’m going to put them here on my site for people to read and make their own mind up about them. Catalogued and Categorised – THE LOST JOURNALS 1980’s

Also, I am reminded of the great wordsmith and troubadour BOB DYLAN, a personal mentor and inspiration to me, who has said that on reading the early songs he wrote back in his twenties from albums like the Freewheelin’ Bob Dylan – that he doesn’t recognise the person who wrote them anymore. Of course Dylan is in fact the supreme enigma and says a lot of stuff but then we all do, don’t we?



About edenbray

I am a writer ... a beat poet who began writing poetry way back in 1966 ... 'edenbray is born ugly, wet, covered in blood, mucous & bodily functions, the effluence of my short life' ... I recently published my 1st solo Anthology - the best of 60 years writing - previously I ran my own Art Supplies Store for 40 yrs before I became a full-time writer I am a Blogger who has posted 1,000 poems - available in 24 themed booklets ... please ask for details + leave a 'like' or a comment for my encouragement, thank you so much for listening - I truly value your opinion on my work ~ in fact I literally survive on your creative input ~ edenbray
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