In consequence the old man had nothing more that he could say

Who sat searching and rocking his chair that August-bitten day

He bathed in the moonlight, in the starlight down Faradillo’s Way


Cascading lights like sober dreams trickling through larva rocks

And Bernadette her hands so course of care combing ivory locks

Marvellous the sun-dried dial turned wide to hide lost grazing flocks


Who jacked the steering wheel hard and set it bold to centre square

Or carried through the mobile crew who paused naked without a care

And Dale Maloney singing wild throughout the night the truest song



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… … …

The avenue of true reconciliation is lined with olive trees …

The oil of gladness is an anointing for the soul upon your head …

My peace is caught up inside you when you smile because I am happy …

I trace the corners of your mouth and feel good when you are there …

I dream of you and in dreaming I sleep long, well, deep and soundly …

When I speak your name it reminds me there is beauty in the world …

When I hear your laugh there are angels in attendance around me …

The rain that falls when you walk by, falls lightly inside my heart …

When I am troubled, I speak your name and I feel calm and consoled …

The dragons murmur when you are around them and hold no fear …

If I can skip it is when I know I am going to meet you and to see you …

The rainbow in my heart was born the day I met you and it remains …

If a soft bird flies, or sings, or whistles it is never as sweet as your kiss

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To : Tha’ very best a’ friends including some very SAGE ADVICE!

Delivered in the style of a proper Burns-night address – raucus, bawdy, heartfelt and true and always well-anointed with a true Scots Whisky – on this occasion an AUCHONTOSHAN 3 RIVERS – SINGLE MALT.

… … …

A good evening to thee my lassies and my laddies fair

We, who hath known each other for many-a, many-a – l-o-ong, long y-are

Afore we drink an’are toast and wish each otha’ tha’ best a’ best in wishes, hopes an’ prayer

I’ll settle thee down with a few chosen thoughts most rare –

To wish thee upon thy way – this Special wee night and through the ‘coming’  y-are –

I’ll send ye all awa’ wi’ the heartiest of endeavour from a bosom most bare –

A heart-shaped bond so tightly adorned ma’ sleeve, tis blood-red, warm and pulsing,

A fetal heart-beat to tell thee all – THAT  knowing folks like thee makes life so much more absolving

It raiseth expectation, ma’ clemency, ma’ charity and my ambition

  • Your conversation, manners, warmth of embrace all afford me a fond transition

  • Another charter to carry on withstanding the crappy shit – life sometimes hurls –

  • at all of us here – both us handsome men and thee, ye three pretty girls.

Remember this then my chubby little frens’ when trial o’ life and angst a’ thought amount to put us under.

Just lift your kilts, lift your skirts, then purse your arse and let it thunder!


Delivered successfully at a Burns night supper on Burns Night 2020 – 5th. Jan. 2020

– It receiveth much applause


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Bathsheba’s Promise

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O’ tumbled then the fairest whiskey both an’ the flowered wreath in Crispin’s wake

Who lit a flame and carried bower o’er’ morning dew, whoever slew the fatted ox

Or caught the sun it’s nestled slew which drew an auburn haze ablaze at set of sun

The fairest wench I ever saw dressed with flowing hair and velvet skirts replete

Whose smile and pretty eyes in no wise disguise the frailty of her ficklest gaze

That meets the dawn of each and every mornings days wherein we run our race

With part hope, part fear, afraid to look even for some earnest cheer or praise or promise

Bathsheba knows and always follows at a distance decked with grace of a certain kind 

Written, woven, carved into her face and set, if not in stone, then with cautions steed

Who runs at speed while Bathsheba sits aside the saddle dedicate and delicate

Not knowledge, or esteem, or wonder, or gratitude, or lovelorn duty or respect

While we watch the ancient clock engulf the cur and write a name of pedigree

We, who were born to handle and cure the strangest, strongest meats yet hover now

Over death-defying feats, at least complete and safe in the knowledge of deceit

Good grace that welcomes charm is but lost on Sheba’s less than noble arm and hollow 

Of all these vestment balms she has but negligible qualms in dressing up to thrill

For Bathsheba is her only gauge and ambivalent to the rage that clatters around her head

In this arena if nothing more be said, it is that she who has led a least extraordinary life

That flickers, … , brightens, fades, warms to a lighthouse blaze, still glistens off-shore tidy.



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the bull

… …

Wipe the blood from my brow, I’ve seen much worse than this

Take me into the stalls, the best seats, those ruddy-red plush ones

Where centre of stage they all can feel me, glimpse this animals rage

Not bottled or canned – everyone full-on sees me bold, out of my cage

Exposed to the glare of the sun with my balls hanging free 

Ive seen the obstacles, I know the score, My chances are faint

My weak heart is racing, my sides ache – these wounds scalding-sore

The riders taunting, matador painting – splashed in this animals blood

No time for this bovine to stand aimless, guileless, chewing farmers’ cud 

My place in a march of destiny, I am a creature of meat in August-prime

No care for mens triviality, taken up with the facile of words in rhyme

Life itself, the power of brutal form adorned with behemoth’s mantle

Rid of faceless graces, all traces of the hypocrites scorn or of habits worn

I paw the earth, a storm of dust where men fight freedom & their lust

I shake my head bowed and rush to meet this foe, this final friend

Who draws my pain, my blood, my death, my final breath and lays me to the ground    




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Originally written 22.12.1988 and posted ~ June 3rd, 2012 ~ and re-posted ~ 17 January, 2020 as the final piece of an Edenbray Retrospective #1 – #50

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I am eternal

I am light

I am beginning 

and no ending

I am living

heat __________

My endless joy

My raging passion

My all

My everything

Outside, inside , in


Existing, never dull

Floating on a tidal wave

of experience

Matter parts, separates, forms

divides, thrives

dead matter dies


Childhood friends

childhood sweethearts

Loving buddies

Boys, girls

Men – women

Opposites attract

Distance separates

Put no distance between us

Separate us not

– Living energy are we

The beginning

and never the end

!   ?   !   ?   !   ?   !   ?   !


Lifes torrid pageant

Steamy sense and passion

Muscle, power, nerve

and graceful curve

Form, pattern, power

and grace

Beyond experience

Floating uncertainty

Sum of hopes fulfilment

This is a parody

A tale of struggle

sweat and joy

⃞   ᴐ   ◅   ⏥   ᴑ   ᴞ   ᴧ   ⎖

  ᐉ        ᐊ

Stating  the  obvious

ᴀ  .  ᴘ  .  ᴘ  .  ᴇ  .  ᴎ  .  ᴅ  .  ᴉ  .  ᵪ

I am a scientist

marine biologist

Discoverer of planets

stretching to the horizons

Breaking the mould that

grips me with octopus grasp

ONE THING for certain

I am no poet

no visionary

no rhymer of rhymes

As I play with words

like a child with Lego

Forming and fitting bits


Hard fact

Grand supposition

and Mellow illusion

These all twist and embrace

Copulate like lusting insects

I watch animated

involved, unafraid

unashamed as these

angular forms

patterns, grow

divesting, releasing


Imagination is my first

primeval gift

My right to use and enjoy


Why play on the edge of

experience and temptation

When one may wallow,

indulge in the centre

of delights?



#Authors Note – A spiritually awakened piece I feel – full of positive energy and resolve! I actually wrote this while in my early 20’s. I love that it doesn’t take any prisoners! edenbraytoday

Authors 2nd Note ~ This marks the last piece I am posting in this current Edenbray Retrospective for now. I started re-posting this Retrospective in November, 2019 and it has taken me around 2 months to edit, re-write a few and post 50 pieces in total that I wrote between the years 1990 until 2012 although some of my work including a few in this Retrospective, were originally written and published in the late 60’s, 70’s and 80’s. It has been a true labour of love but it has taught me a lot about myself and my writing which I am sure will help me as I move on.

I have posted this Edenbray Retrospective here on my newer Edenbray 8 Blog as I have mentioned – for a new generation – who may or m ay not be interested in my work. The pieces I have chosen for the Retrospective were not selected pieces – I have re-posted them pretty much in the order they were originally posted with the exception of the penultimate Poem #49

I could continue to Re-post my work and may return to the project later in the year but for now I feel I have some new pieces to complete, post and publish. I am hoping an Anthology of some selected pieces will be published later in the year and obviously I would be grateful for any interest this printed project might receive. Please leave a note as a comment on this site or email me at stepheneede689@btinternet.com – if you would like a copy of my Edenbray Anthology of works – A Life in the Writing or if you would like to discuss or comment on my work in any way. I would be interested in your thoughts.

Thank you for your interest – edenbraytoday

#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation!

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Originally written and posted ~ 19, June 2013 – Re-posted  ~ 16th. January, 2020 as part of an Edenbray Retrospective 

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Monster broke from the track

Carly’s man not coming back

The grey line of the sky meets 

The narrow smear of pale blood

The blushing rush of winged life

Upon the virtue of blue hills and

Radiant mornings and the like

But abandon me with disgrace

For now, for ever the heart weary

Folded within itself, a golden sparrow

It plays on margins with bright hope

Fleck n’flutter and arrows long and true

I not so certain walking on eggshells

Out of control in Texas and nervous where?

Wanting more and then wanting less

The simple girl in a pale blue dress

More than ever dreamed or schemed

Its late and dark and wet and cold

Imagination’s red and bold, Marie,

A gold-star coach, a pocket of notes 

Sometimes we step off a plane

Wander down streets we never seen

Floating over reality’s silver sheen

In Texas, Arizona, Bakersfield, Carp

Those places we never even been

And the orange sun shouting! 

Just wanted to run – be someone else

Run – be somewhere else than hell



#Authors Note ~ Up to this point my Retrospective has run almost straight through chronologically but with this little gem I have decided to break rank and introduce OUT OF CONTROL IN TEXAS – THE GREAT AND NERVOUS DREAM FULFILLED, a piece which I wrote a year or more after SHE SHONE SILVER LIKE A STAR. I chose to do this mainly because I love where its at, whereas the previous entry I was kind of uncertain over.

This piece marks a return to my interest in Jazz Poetry. It drags you in and suggests something is going on that’s not quite right. If it were a full-red out of a bottle I would say ~ Dark and mysterious but playful – hope you enjoy it!   –  edenbraytoday

#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation!

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Originally written and posted 1st, May, 2012 – Re-posted 16th January, 2020 as part of an Edenbray Retrospective

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By the ferris wheel and then I danced by the painted galloping horses

Four-teen and twenty I saw my darling sweep by me wearing yellow on this day

Her cheeks flushed peaches pink with a smile bloody, full and charming

The pall, the pang of a wounded soldier caught and dangling from a wire tree

Caught like a baited bird, sore and swinging but with eyes wet and longing

The passion of the grey dawn is still fighting despite the night so blue behind me

Have I spent so much time writing songs to lose you to a word chipped or broken?

Or does the honest tale I copied from my night-time memory now betray me?

Be the sweet honest table upon which I lay my cotton shirt and my glass bullets cold

I could step out with you my sweetness and my crazy, I could walk tall beside thee

and taking your softest hand I hold your fingers warm and fragrant like petals orange

I also hold the day when for all the arrows falling, life had lost its meaning

We had talked of romance and laughter and flirted long the mystery of men and women

Mended nets, collected glowworms, sent skyrockets, danced with friends on a Tuesday

and made up tales where valiant vagabonds met warm breasted whores they ever trusted

Or spoke of falcons and embroidered waistcoats, lace bodices, the plumpest cooing doves

Then broke the frightened doe, she springing from a gnarled old thick-skin oak so callous

Sporting daisies, white convolvulus ever a lying stem and the poachers nettled sister

All these the summer sun greet meekly and hide in clenched fist with a mailed hand

When Rose-Marie, she walks the tightrope dressed from toe to top in bronzed curly gilt

saying so sweetly ‘These were only stories she could ever muster upon that loyal Wheel’

I could have been so many people for thee silver lady, we sure shone together for a day

and drew the poisons from the ransacked villagers ideas and scheming  opinion

A day washed in ginger and lemon, when prince’s fathers come to arrange dowry,

Ponies wear flowered garlands and the urban streets even seem dressed in gold light

But for now it is well that this painted cabinet has been decked, daubed and decorated

Garments of fragrant and true broderie anglaise, washed and folded, tidied away

A book of watercolour, a notebook of honesty and the silver threads of the stallions mane

Who flies the sky, the drenched darkened night where Orion sits and counts his bounty?

His honesty knows above all others that once she had shone silver more like a true star


But for now


#Authors Note – This is another piece I hardly recognise. Upon reflection, I’m sure ‘The Heroine’ would have been a good title for it. I think it was personal to me when I wrote it. Of course it was personal. Everything I write is personal. For how else is one supposed to write. I think I love it and I also hate it. No, not like marmite. Its almost perfect and perfect things always have a habit of disappointing you finally. The object of this piece has disappointed the writer. It is very ‘past’ tense. I write very melancholic prose  anyway because nothing really worth saying is not tinged with sadness or nostalgia. All the best thoughts are memories – thank God for our memories! – Yes, ‘the Heroine’ might have been a better title – It’s certainly a lot easier to say.      – edenbraytoday 


#PROG-PROSE ~ Progressive Poetry – part of an #Edenbray retrospective – Re-posted today for a new generation!

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Originally written and posted ~ 3rd. March, 2012 – Edited and re-posted 15th. January, 2020 as part of an Edenbray Retrospective

The Writers Guild or A Collection of Failed Bolsheviks Community ~ AN ESSAY

– a personal opinion

Writing, painting, sculpting, the performing arts, whether as singers, actors, dancers, footballers, poets or magicians, indeed any kind of creativity in any way – even f—–g or needlepoint, knitting or cooking,  concerning anybody creative … but maybe not stamp-collecting ?!

… … …

The creative pursuits all have an addictive intensity to them. Whether we may assume that being artistically creative is harmfully addictive or not, there is no doubting that the creative pursuits build up a certain head of steam – a passion, a consuming fire in the belly that if married to any kind of personal obsession or substance dependency, whether benign, active or acute, can produce a detrimental ‘trojan horse’ within the mind or soul of the creative personality. This veritable molotov cocktail may internally combust and consume the individual from the inside out. A raging forest fire, that once alight can eat out the very soul of an individual … or do I exaggerate? … but hey, let’s not run ahead!

‘the creative personality’

The creative mind has always been susceptible to excess. The truly ‘artistic’ are inclined to frequent those unoccupied zones between the acceptable ‘norm’ and the unknown. They explore the very boundaries of freedom. The writer and the artist can easily become voyeurs, either through their own imagination or as daring inquirers seeking informed, first-hand reference.

They may originally travel to places they would not necessarily have visited in their regular lives, to push and press against the borders of the established order or at very least the current and accepted status quo in any particular field of experience or expertise. They may easily become explorers, pioneers and social scientists in pursuit of personal, artistic professionalism or to fulfil their writers journalistic credibility. Traversing this realm of uncertainty they become vulnerable to excess in their private lives through the ‘open’ window of opportunity that affords the open or creative mind. In other words, they may discover temptation more easily and once discovered and the threshold crossed, may participate more frequently and with greater relish and abandonment.

This pursuit of creative excellence has produced many casualties throughout history and it is relatively easy to index and identify many popularised, tragic identities within our own 20th and 21st century arena among those working in the teeming delta of the performing arts and creative disciplines. Artists, painters, writers, poets and performers have often fallen prey to personal weakness while attempting to answer the call of their more curious, artistic, creative and in consequence – vulnerable side.

The wonderfully creative personality that was Amy Winehouse

Does Anyone Actually Value Experience Anymore?

Amy Winehouse, you might say is a more recent victim of her own creativity to mention only one recent example but many creative casualties litter the streets, boardwalks, viae and boulevards of the growing Global Artists Village from Tin Pan Alley to Tinseltown, the Montmartre to Greenwich Village, from the Fiumicino Commune in Rome to the Veles in Macedonia.
For example characters as diverse as Vincent Van Gogh, Marilyn Monroe, Amadeus Mozart, Jim Morrison, Aubrey Beardsley, Michelangelo Caravaggio and of course even Elvis Presley have become virtually clichéd by the nature of their early demise and those are few, besides the many other less famous creative casualties that litter history’s artists garrisons and billets where creative excess has contributed to disastrous and premature breakdown and fatalities.

The sad loss of Amy, paradoxically threw into contrast the fairly lean period of such ‘pop’ celebrity disaster that we have observed in more recent years, compared to that rock-star binge of the sixties, seventies and even eighties that we may revisit and collect creative names from like Panini stickers. Names such as Brian Jones, Keith Moon, Phil Lynnot, Sid Vicious, George Best, Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Freddie Mercury, Marvin Gaye … , … , and so on and so on and so on who all met untimely deaths and all tell a similar tale of ‘burn-out’ or while being as kind as one can be – at least of those who lived life to ‘it’s fullest’.
Performers and artists of more recent years had seemed to avoid the pitfalls and ship-wreck boulders of the past to live and die in more normal circumstances but then along came Jacko’, Amy and later George Michael and we are again left to wondering, why does the creative artist need to sail so close to the wind?

‘The Personal Life ~ Is It Over?’

There is a very quotable line in the David Lean epic movie ‘Dr Zhivago’ where Tom Courtney’s character, Pavel Pavlovich or ‘Pasha’, who is by now a leading light in the Bolshevik party when he announces to Zhivago, himself a poet and writer, that ‘the personal life is over’.

I often wonder on hearing that particular Bolshevik mantra, whether that is the reason that the communist ideal mistrusts individual creative freedom per se. On the grounds, that it can lead to such personal indiscipline, breakdown and subsequent self annihilation. Can the creative mind cope alone with those inspired, power surges of creativity or is it simply that few have the necessary ‘bottle’ to handle ‘popular’ popularity and what has been tagged somehow euphemistically ‘the price of fame’.
Artistic and creative minds, unfettered by the usual lines of control, can career on, rudderless, without navigation and almost inevitably they appear to drift so often into an excessive lifestyle that can only lead to tragic conclusions.

The Bolsheviks hoped to organise us all

Writers themselves must tread a solitary path to construct their particular art or craft which is at least as daring a route as any actor who by imagination or ‘method’ usurps the will and persona of another to portray a part either on-screen or on stage. Arguably the actors course is less fraught, due to the obvious attention they receive from fellow actors and production directors. People are generally confirmed in their professional labour by those they work with and the social exchange that simple communication and rapport with others brings.

Is it not surprising that there are not more casualties in the unofficial Writers Guild – that strange unseen world of reporters, journalists and novelists, those silent travellers who must journey with stealth and discipline through often imaginary landscapes and human-scapes, often unaccompanied, un-counselled and even more worryingly, unpaid? They wrestle foes and encounter trauma and problems from without and within and the widest sources imaginable as they construct schizophrenic multiple novel personalities or delve deep into history’s darkest facts, fiction and biographic detail to investigate both societies heroes and villains. After all this, they must still continue to build ordered, interesting and engaging literature or possibly prose with virtually no feed-back or exchange.

For the writer, assaulted by the demon ‘block’ and possibly a pile of bills on the mat or unopened in their e-mail folder, there is not even the opportunity to piggyback on the creative skills of fellow performers as the only sounds they get as they go about their task, is the rhythmic tip–tack of their laptop keyboard?

Well indeed, the Bolsheviks spoke, when they proposed, that ‘the personal life is over’, whichever way you ‘cut’ it. For the mute members of the unofficial Writers Guild every shared observation, every witty or frank remark, every revealing or sensual phrase announces to the whole potential world outside their own private, if not lonely, then ‘alone’ status that yes, indeed for the writer ‘the personal life’ is indeed ‘kind of over’.



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Other reading :

‘CREATING BRAINS’ Blog with Joana Johnson


– how we miss her and her like – who died too soon!

the wonderful Jessica Renea comments – 07.03.2012

Makes me want to weep. We are a band of minds and hearts who sees and feels what everyone else knows is there but just can’t say. The intensity and frustration take too many. My Dad says every creative is burdened by the need to create something completely new which rarely happens and builds an intensity and anxiety so great that it can lead to madness.


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Written and posted ~ 3rd. March, 1999 – Re-posted ~ 3rd. January, 2020 as part of an Edenebray retrospective

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.  .  .

Who was the guy who sat in front of

his canvas for three days and on

the third day, took a knife and

ripped the canvas saying,

‘I cannot paint’ …’ ?         

Of course today, we’re taught to

understand the other guy’s point of

view. It’s not cool to be reactionary

but did he not miss the point as he

sat waiting for inspiration with

his brush-in-hand?

Was not the point, that for three days

~ the effort, the wait was worthwhile.

So why, on the third day did he take

the knife?

Why not the fourth, or the fifth

or the seventy fifth?

~ He was not a professional.

A professional never gives up,

A professional never gives in

and they hung his poor, torn canvas

as an exhibit ~ a work of art ~

This was not art, it was destruction ~

this said life is meaningless,

there is no point ~ nihilism.

God is dead!

If he had waited beyond the third day

God would have come.

If he was earnest, a professional!

~ Maybe if he had considered that

it took Jesus 3 days to get to Lazarus

~ 3 days for the Son of God to resurrect!

~ he didn’t wait!

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Spatial Concept ~ ‘Waiting’ – 1960

…  By slashing the centre of his canvases, Fontana allowed three–dimensional space to intrude into an otherwise two–dimensional surface. Fontana first introduced perforations within his works in 1949 and referred to these as “spatial concepts.” He then began slashing his canvases in the early 1950s and added the term “Expectations” to the title. While these works immediately conjure acts of violence and iconoclasm, Fontana claimed “I have constructed, not destroyed.”

Authors Comment – Conversely and perhaps a little surprisingly I have much more empathy with and sympathy for Lucio Fontana’s work than this ‘essay’ might suggest.

These ‘essays’ that I write are not really essays at all, much more like poetry or poetic pieces. My poems are not really poems, they are like essays. They reflect a view, hopefully they pose questions? The lines are blurred. All classifications are misleading anyway. Was Fontana an artist? Was Fontana a painter? Was he a nihilist? Was he a christian?

I have enormous respect for anyone who can find fame and fortune with their ‘art’ or even earn a living, crust of bread.

Fontana was born in Argentina in 1899 and died in 1968. He was my age when he died! These works have earned there own classification – ‘Spatialism’ – Bravo!



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